I am amazed at how this year panned out for me. It started on a low but will end on a high. This year is also proving to be among the best in my life so far.
I never thought it would happen to me, but on the morning of January 8, almost a year ago, my boss called me to one of our conference rooms in the office. With a grim look on his face, he uttered words that prefaced the gloom and doom I felt minutes later: “I’ve got bad news for you…”.
The company I worked for aimed to improve its bottomline, requiring management to declare some roles redundant, mine included. A few months later, I would learn that it underwent a massive restructure.
Numbness crept in, and I barely noticed our HR Head pulling out a form for me to sign as he handed me a check worth a few months’ salary. Surprisingly, I could barely stop myself, not from crying, but from laughing out loud at the ludicrousness of the moment. “This could not be happening”, my mind kept repeating. But it was happening. It happened.
Stepping out of the meeting room, I grabbed my phone and called the one person I would entrust my life to if it came to it — Patty, my best friend. “Hey, my role was declared redundant. I’m out of a job. I’ll see you in a while.” Unknown to me, Patty went up to her room to pray the moment our phone call ended. Unknown to her, I parked my car at some random street corner to pray. And the moment I got home, Patty and I sat in a corner to pray. Helpless and in surrender.
It was ludicrous because just 6 days prior, during worship, I told the Lord that I wanted to be more intimate with Him, that I wanted to know Him more. Six days later, I lost my job. I could not understand it then, but as months rolled by, everything became crystal clear.
It was then, in those five months of being without a job that I felt peace blanket me. I finally had the time to decompress, collect myself and do a lot of introspection. I finally had the time to sit still, listen to Him, and have serious conversations with Him. I finally had hours in the day to understand His word, and know so much of the Lord whom I now love more than ever.
In those months, He taught me to just trust Him. That everything was going to be ok. I had a huge mortgage to pay but realised I would willingly give up my dream house if that were His will. All I constantly prayed for was for Him not to abandon me, to guide me in my deepening faith in Him. And His constant reply to me was to learn to work not for myself, but for others and for Him. And above all else to be humble. That all I do must be for the fulfilment of my life’s purpose and for His greater glory.
Then when the time was right – in His time – I found a number of job opportunities, all in rapid succession.
I am now working for a multinational company, in a role that I truly enjoy. It is different, it is challenging, and thus fulfilling. I am fast making new friends. If He wills it, I would like to stay here, continually learning new things. It is a good company to retire from.
I’ve learned that sometimes His messages aren’t always immediately crystal-clear, but eventually they become so. I know there will be times when I will not be able to hear Him. That He will choose to be silent. But I also know that His silence will have a reason behind it and that I will need to be steadfast in my faith the way He wants me to be.
Time flies. This year flew. And yes, this year is certainly among the best in my entire life.